21
Feb
“…ashes to ashes
dust to dust…”
does life really have to be that short? :(
does nothing last? :(
do i have to grow up even i still don’t want to?
now that the semester is almost ending, i am having so many fears and i tend to over think more now than ever…
after graduating this coming March (hopefully, i do graduate! oh physics please let me graduate!), i’m about to begin yet another journey of life called unemployment.
i don’t want to be a burden to my parents anymore now that i’m a young adult. i need to have job and stuff but with the economic problems of this country… i don’t think so :( with millions of college students graduating how will our government handle that?
and i don’t want to be like most of the graduates before us who go into call-center because the pay is big but that kind of job isn’t permanent. i want a stable job. i don’t mind starting with a low salary because that’s really what happens at the beginning.
aside from that, i don’t want to be stuck in a company for years. i still want to proceed to medicine or any other field that is related to my bachelor’s degree course. i have so many things that i want to do before my life ends. the pattern i’ve observed with people working in companies is that they’d give up on dreams they had because “it’s too late”, i have dreams that i wish to fulfill.
however, as what Tiana said in the movie, The Princess and the Frog, “he may didn’t have what he wanted but he had what he needed.” most of my dreams are wants and trivial minor things… like traveling the world. it is not that important really… it’s just that these maybe just “wants” but it’s the experience from this that i want to have. the want becomes a need. confusing myself and you too…
oh well, i still have a lot of things to think through…
dearest reader, good luck with life and may you be blessed always :)
-k.b.e.d
