I don’t know what to do or say that will help both of us be eased from any pain.

I feel guilty and depressed everytime I unintentionally hurt you…

because I can just imagine the unbearable pain of not knowing where this is going and all your efforts put to waste.

I am afraid of so much things but this i know, i do love you…

and it is for that very reason why i succumb to my fears.

Fears of regret, pain, and losing the very person who has loved me for so long and accepted me beyond my flaws.

He is, right now, the most the important boy in my life!

and I don’t want to lose him…

not NOW…

not EVER.

I wish I could tell you…

for you to know what i truly feel…

but I am uncertain of how you would feel about the circumstances that comes

with the decision that I will take you as my lover and take the risk of losing 

you :’(